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Weakness
Friday, November 1, 2013 | Posted by Jiayi |
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Have you ever have trouble trying to communicate with someone but no matter how hard you try,you just can't seems to talk? I have experienced that, and will still experience it. I find it incredibly awesome when someone can talk to a stranger so comfortably and they become friends the next second.Like WOW. This is perhaps the main reason why i have not much friends. I always ask myself,why can't i be more socialise? Why can't i just talk like it's not a big deal? Why must i be so timid and always afraid of saying the wrong thing? And i still don't have the answer. This character of mine has caused me so much disadvantages and it just wont go away despite me trying many times. I can't present my work properly,i can't make new friends easily and i can't do what i really love to do. Why must the thing i'm most afraid of be the main key to my dream? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?I'm not sure whether this is caused by my low self confidence or a phobia. Perhaps both. And it's incurable. Incurable..I get so upset because i get nervous so easily. You wouldn't believe how nervous i can get for the slightest reason. I'll be nervous when a teacher ask me to talk. My first OS to myself whenever a teacher call me will be "don't look at me please please please" , yes and they are meant for my classmates.I get soooooooooooo intense when i feel the glare coming from different people. Weird isn't it? While my other friends can answer the questions easily without second thought, and thats what i want to be which is quite impossible. So tell me, how to change this point of mine? Get nervous easily and can't make friends.My teachers and some friends always tell me that i should present my work more,and after a while i will get use to it but let me say this, I WILL NEVER GET USE TO SPEAKING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE,NEVER. I'm so uncomfortable with attentions surrouding me(but my dream requires me to overcome this). Seems like dreams will always be dreams. Someone teach me. Tweet  |